I guess my anxiety wasn’t gone like I had thought…. The shaking, the picking at my skin till it bleeds, the nail biting and skin biting and the horrible feeling that everyone around me is just going to leave or hurt me it’s all back and I feel terrible.
I feel like such a failure I just want to feel happy. :(
Anonymous asked: thoughtsdoes your girl like or save images of male models, or half naked attractive looking men? if she does, how does it make you feel? if she doesn't, well, do you like or save photos of that nature but with females? I'm talking about non pornographic photos of very beautiful people with a lot of sex appeal. I wonder what your opinion is on it, if you think it goes against monogamy if one person behaves that way and the other doesnt? it makes me feel like I'm not good enough for my partner
I personally don’t save pictures of attractive women but I know most guys do. To my knowledge Julia doesn’t save pictures of attractive men or women but I wouldn’t be upset if she did because I know she loves me and I’m supremely confident that no one can satisfy her the way I can. So I think a lot of it comes down to self-confidence. I don’t think that keeping images of models would be breaking the mold of monogamy because an image is not a physical partner. That being said, if a partner in a relationship is keeping images of ex lovers to get off on or swoon over then that’s a love attachment and that’s definitely not allowed. But if Julia had images of guys she was masturbating to I would definitely feel hurt and betrayed. It’s very natural to feel unwanted if your lover isn’t thinking of your body as desirable. It’s a hard limit of mine and it sounds like it’s a hard limit of yours too. If you tell your boyfriend that his possession of these images is hurting your feelings and he doesn’t immediately get rid of them then I don’t think you should be together. I say that because if he won’t make accommodations to make his girlfriend feel loved and beautiful then I honestly think he doesn’t deserve to have you. You need a lover that is obsessed with you. You deserve it.